That moment when you realize you still have a blog...

Look, so, apparently I really suck at keeping tabs with this.

It was a lot easier when I was still in school and doing things, and someone was always on my back like- WHERES THE BLOG, SAM?! GEEZ.

I'm my own worst enemy.

It doesn't help that in the process of graduating school, I had a pretty hardcore car accident, I moved into a new house, my computer is gone, and I can't afford to buy a new one because I have grown up things to pay for now... like mascara and gummy bears- you know. Essentials.

And to fair, as we all know my anxiety loves to rear its head periodically- along with it's best friend, depression.

It's no secret I fall in slumps sometimes. It's nothing so crazy where I'm down for months, and it's not debilitating enough where I can't get out of bed. I used to be like that, honestly. And my depression usually stems from not feeling useful- or that I have no worth because I do nothing.

Which is terrible for someone who has to wait for their state board test so they can become a licensed cosmetologist.

The only thing really holding me together is cleaning my house on repeat and my wonderful boyfriend who suggests things like, "Call your mom and paint" or "Let's go buy our Christmas tree today so we can decorate".

It's small, I realize this, but it helps- which is why I'm coming back to this blog. Maybe that sense of responsibility will bring me back to life. And once state board passes, I'm happy to say I will immediately be in a salon and You Too Can Do's can officially become a regular happenstance. It's hard doing tutorials when your hair is cut off and you've been stuck in a rut of wearing it wavy. I'll probably start with some makeup stuff first because who better of a canvas than I?! 

Small rant: My boyfriend is letting me use his computer, which is great- however the keyboard has a sticky space bar and it's one of those boards where it's split and raised in the middle and also, half of the lettering on the keys are rubbed off. I might throw it against the wall... Maybe if I whine enough he'll buy a new one.

I hope this helps though. I realize this isn't very great, but when my favorite bloggers go on hiatus, I kind of like to know they're alive with a blog post about their lives. It makes me happy.

-SamanthaK