You Too Can Do: Being Positive Even Though Sometimes IT CAN BE DIFFICULT

You Too Can Do: Being Positive Even Though Sometimes IT CAN BE DIFFICULT

We have a saying at school- "be a visionary". Now while most people interpret this as trying to embody a discoverer or achiever, I have interpreted this as "try to be positive" and also, "don't let anyone know you're drowning". 

I have a "say yes to everything" attitude and I rarely turn down a challenge. However, when a challenge comes my way and there's nothing I can do to fix the problem, or solve an issue- I mentally shut down. It happens. My brain turns off, and I can feel the heat rising to my face. The only thing that remains is this statement, flashing through my brain, "I do not like you."

I feel when you're a visionary, A LOT of "non-visionary" people like to throw sticks in your wheels. It grinds you down to a halt and half the time- there's nothing you can do.

I won't tell you specifics, because that's not fair to other people and myself. And I'm definitely not going to be that guy who gossips on my blog. Sorry, if you wanted school drama, it's not here.

Suffice it to say, I'm bothered that I work very hard for particular achievements and I am not granted the courtesy of moving up despite that I have my ducks in a row.

So for the last few days it's been very hard to stay positive. (Especially when you go to school with 800 women and all they want to do is hear the details over and over again. Take my advice, don't get stuck in that loop- complaining over and over again isn't going to make you feel any better and it's going to make you look like a Grade A buffoon).

It helps that my friends are awesome though. It helps when you have people who support you and distract you from nonsense.

I woke up like this to the sounds of my dad slamming the door in the office and yelling quite loudly, "Hey, you awake yet? Don't you have school?" Yes, I do have school, IN MORE THAN 2 HOURS.

Needless to say the coffee didn't help much.

It was made worse with a certain problem I won't discuss here. In addition, a bunch of girls who, no matter how many times I explain it, cannot figure out a color wheel and instead of trying to learn, spend over an hour giving me scenarios like, "So she has like, dark red hair, and she wants light brown and highlights, what should I do?" Needless to say, my nerves are fried and my temper is short. 

But then Abby roped me into a mini class. At least she has a good attitude, I spent most of the class griping about foils.

To be fair though, they did come out well, so I felt a little better.

Abby, Amy, and I had Wing Stop for lunch BECAUSE IT IS VERY GOOD. It made me feel A LOT better just scarfing down food I love with people who make me happy. They were really good about distracting me. Also, I did not take pictures of that moment because my hands were covered in sauce, so instead, enjoy this terribly attractive picture of me eating ribs.

Then Gabby attempted to do a blow dry but the head kept falling off the stand every 2 minutes. She says it was the stand, I maintain she's an aggressive blow-dryer.

But at the end of the day, I just really couldn't deal with people. It happens to me sometimes. Between anxiety problems and being around crowds or texted 24/7, sometimes spending an evening by yourself can be the reset button you always needed. So, I spent the night watching My Little Pony and eating Madellines. Don't Judge.

Also, Kristina made this for me! Isn't this awesome? I realize it kind of makes me look like I drink a lot or something, but I still think it's adorable.

-SamanthaK